Sunday, 6 November 2011

Delight, fear and disbelief

My favourite South Island location Oamaru

Last post I talked about having my 3rd job interview over a period of four months for the same position. Since then I have been to a talk where the speaker considered they were blessed because they had never been out of work in their life.
I have been out of work for the last four months and prior to my last contract position for an unheard of period of two years I was out of work.  However, I do not consider that means I am not blessed. It is just a sign of the times. I always find plenty to keep me busy when I am not in paid work.
My interview went well and I was offered and accepted the position. Then I experienced wild swings of emotion from thankfulness to disbelief to fear. It was hard to believe that after being left hanging for so long I had a permanent position.
After saying "thank-you Spirit" repeatedly, I then I fell into the pre-new job nervousness - omg can I perform this role. But as my daughter pointed out, what starts out as nervousness soon turns to bored when the mysteries of the role are revealed through sheer repetition.
I have a job (this picture was actually taken in Japan)!
A thought occured to me today that blogging is the modern day equivalent of the confessional and the comments we get are our Hail Marys. 
Enjoy your day.


  1. Hope your new job goes well.
    Is that you in the photo? You look very nice, and happy.
    I agree with your last paragraph.

  2. Well done, and I am sure your daughter is right. It's natural to feel some anxiety in this situation but it will all seem different after you've been in the job for a month or two! :)

  3. Best of luck in the new job and with your travels.