Sunday, 6 November 2011

Delight, fear and disbelief

My favourite South Island location Oamaru

Last post I talked about having my 3rd job interview over a period of four months for the same position. Since then I have been to a talk where the speaker considered they were blessed because they had never been out of work in their life.
I have been out of work for the last four months and prior to my last contract position for an unheard of period of two years I was out of work.  However, I do not consider that means I am not blessed. It is just a sign of the times. I always find plenty to keep me busy when I am not in paid work.
My interview went well and I was offered and accepted the position. Then I experienced wild swings of emotion from thankfulness to disbelief to fear. It was hard to believe that after being left hanging for so long I had a permanent position.
After saying "thank-you Spirit" repeatedly, I then I fell into the pre-new job nervousness - omg can I perform this role. But as my daughter pointed out, what starts out as nervousness soon turns to bored when the mysteries of the role are revealed through sheer repetition.
I have a job (this picture was actually taken in Japan)!
A thought occured to me today that blogging is the modern day equivalent of the confessional and the comments we get are our Hail Marys. 
Enjoy your day.










4 comments:

  1. Hope your new job goes well.
    Is that you in the photo? You look very nice, and happy.
    I agree with your last paragraph.

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  2. Well done, and I am sure your daughter is right. It's natural to feel some anxiety in this situation but it will all seem different after you've been in the job for a month or two! :)

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  3. Best of luck in the new job and with your travels.

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